Reflections

Bye Bye

2011-01-14T12:21:00.003+08:00

Dear Good ol' bloggy,

You've served me well for 3 years.

BYE (the bye is clicky)

In a kind of daze

2011-01-10T15:08:00.000+08:00

PRAISE THE LORD PRAISE THE LORD ... *launches off into song*

Now I'm hoping and praying and crossing my fingers that I'll get into AC. I think I can if all goes well :)

I was trembling when I got the results, and someone told me "You look calm", when my fingers were shaking so hard I couldn't figure out how to open the piece of paper.

Physics was a miracle. So was chemistry and humans and english.

2011-01-08T14:21:00.003+08:00

I love this song.

English Version:

I was trying to copy the chinese characters into my planner, because I think the lyrics are meaningful. While another person could have copied the words in about 5 min (I think, or less), I had to take more than 40min to copy 8lines. It left me mentally exhausted. I guess that's the cost of not taking chinese.

2011-01-04T21:06:00.004+08:00

It's weird to find out that someone I never had anything against, someone I thought was my friend, had 'unfriended' me on Facebook. It's a superficial kind of friendship, but I can't help but wonder why, and hurt a bit.

On an even gloomier note, the O's results are coming out so soon and I'm terrified.

Gloomier still, I went to SPCA (for fun) and almost completely lost my confidence in even my ability to become a vet. The dogs were scary, and the two cages I entered, they tried to chew off my feet. I'm afraid that I won't be able to handle the feistier patients I may have, and start freaking out before them. I'm fine with the tamer ones, but the not-so-tame ones, not so. My sister encourages me to take up external cca at SPCA, so I could learn how to handle the less obedient dogs. I'm scared.

HAPPY STUFF NOW>

I went to Somerset 111 today for dinner. The Hong Kong restaurant there is so yummy, very authentic, I must say.

I've been playing more badminton nowadays! With my mother and sis. I can now almost play as well with my leftie as my right! Yay.

2011-01-01T15:57:00.001+08:00

It's 2011. Scary, yet I look forward to this year :)

I had a picnic with my mom and sister at Botanical Gardens. The ducks were so cute (and cliquish) and there were baby swans!

I'm So Happy

2010-12-22T18:36:00.002+08:00

Reporting from Hong Kong.
I love the milk tea! So rich and smooth. Not the dilute, watery thing you get in SG.

I bought Butterfly (MC CD). AT LAST!!! It's a must have (for me). It's her turning point, and one of (if not THE) the best of her whole collection. It only cost $12 sg.

Bought lots random stuff. And ate a lot :/ I'm eating too much. I think I gained a hundred kg.

PROM

2010-11-26T17:58:00.002+08:00

The Prom itself was kind of boring just because I was rather bored during all those competitions. But it was fun seeing classmates dress up pretty. It's one of the last times most of the classmates will be together...

Staying over at Ritz Carlton was amazing! I doubt I'll ever stay at such a highclass room in such a highclass hotel again, unless I marry a rich guy or I become really rich for some reason. After prom, we went crazy in the rooms and it was surprising nobody complained. The bubble bath (with us wearing our swimsuits!!) was so fun...

We played random games until 3am and then most of us woke at 8.45am but Janice woke at 7am. I think she's going to be exhausted.

Most of the outings arranged are over. From now on, I guess I'll hang around at home until Sabah & HK. I wish that I could go to SPCA...

2010-11-21T23:26:00.001+08:00

Feels really weird throwing out all those hw/ws/notes I put hours in. It's sort of therapeutic XD

2010-11-21T16:17:00.003+08:00

Of all the books I read from the ones I borrowed, only The Infernal Devices, Mistwood, Going Too Far, and The Hunger Games series are good. The others are all so so, and somehow, the sequels to books which I enjoyed are kind of boring.

2010-11-19T23:06:00.001+08:00

miao miao miao. Walking from Plaza Sing to Far East and circling every floor of the malls in between is reeeeeeeeaaaaalllllllyyy tiring. It gave me muscle ache.

2010-11-17T22:06:00.002+08:00

I'm loving it! This after Os feeling is great :3 I can't believe people feel bored already, maybe I'll start feeling bored after next week.

I think that I only slept on one side yesterday and squished half of my hair so one side seems straighter than the other!

Today I cleaned and mopped the whole house and wiped away rabbit diarrhea! Poor Pinky, she doesn't have very good ?intestines?. She gets diarrhea quite frequently, but it's just mild diarrhea :( She reminds me of the Poor Babe, who got severe diarrhea before she left :( Makes me cry thinking about her pain.

Back to the topic! I cleaned the whole house and hanged the laundry! I like mopping the floor, it's fun... I'm so weird! But I don't like to hang the laundry, it's hot and boring.

After cleaning the house, I feel so proud of myself and happy that I helped out. It's a good feeling. I wonder if I'll still feel good after another 2months of being the full time maid.

Tomorrow....... I hope The Awkward Thing won't happen.

2010-11-16T20:52:00.000+08:00

EEP I curled my hair today!

PRESENTING LE PETIT PRINCE PLANNER

2010-11-14T14:35:00.003+08:00

2010-11-13T09:21:00.002+08:00

I'm so happy, I got my Le Petit Prince Planner. It's so beautiful. I can't wait to start using it! Should I start in the middle of the month?

2010-11-11T10:24:00.002+08:00

http://mcmultimedianet.blogspot.com/p/chronology.html

I found this great website with loads of REALLY RARE Mariah Carey releases/remixes. There's a bunch of songs I spend a lot of time looking for and couldn't find anywhere else :) There's even songs from before her debut, like 1986. SO COOL.

Today was Physics paper one. So sad, I don't think I'll get more than 35/40. I hope that I can get at least 33 or 34. I'd be REALLY HAPPY if I can get an A2 for Physics, but I hope I can at least get B3. Let's hope Chem will be better for me.

It feels surreal that O's are almost over. A surrealistic great feeling!

Slackady Slackady Slack

2010-11-09T12:46:00.003+08:00

I hope I won't get lost going to the National Library. I don't know how to go there and I'm going there in the evening after Os by myself and my mother keeps scaring me by saying that one time a girl disappeared there.

Yesterday I fell down. I hate 7/11s and wet floors. It was embarrassing, but I pretended nothing happened and ignored those goodfornothings staring.

AWESOME :D

2010-11-08T11:53:00.004+08:00

After SS, I went home and screamed, "YEAHHHHH" to myself in the mirror. I also screamed, "YEAHHHHHHHH" to my father and sister.

Hip hip hooray! (x3)

All the written papers are over for me! Only MCQs left :)

I'm going to Holland, then to Balastier, then to Jurong this friday even though exams aren't over for me yet. Talk about running around! So horrible, they placed biology paper 1 the next monday, so I'll have to suffer for one more weekend.

This is amazing :)

Some Books to Read

2010-11-06T14:39:00.004+08:00

Mockingjay

Matched

Return to Paradise

The Sky is Everywhere

2010-11-06T10:57:00.002+08:00

Just 1 more actual writing paper, then 3 MCQs and it's OVERRRRRRRRRRRR :")

HALLELUJAH.

Now I need to stop celebrating and get back to SS which I'm super behind in. I am full of fear.

2010-11-05T20:18:00.002+08:00

I'm so excited to go to Sabah & HK in dec!

I have no idea why I used to dread going back to HK. Actually, I do. I hated visiting all those relatives and random adults who'll try to chat with me. So awkward, but I'm an introvert so it's no surprise that I hate it. Still dread it, but I'm SOO looking forward to the shopping and food! I hope I don't get too fat. Have to know where to shop to get good cheap stuff :) Those big malls usually aren't much cheaper than sg, but there're some places with really good deals.

It seems like forever since my family went on a family vacation to some place other than HK which we go to every half year. YAYAYAYAY can't wait to go to Sabah! The last time we went for a real family vacation was to Tioman in 2005. That was fun. Can't wait, and as a side note, I need a new swimming suit.

I calculated in my diary how much I'll spend this holiday, and it's a huge amount :( I tried, but there's not much I can cut down on unless I don't go for prom (which I want to go) or don't buy the planner (which I REALLY want) or don't go for holidays( er no.) SOOO I need to start saving money asap.

Speaking of diary, I've been writing in my diary a lot, because I'm trying to finish it before I get my planner! Seems like an impossible task.

Sayonara! (My mom keeps saying sayonara gozaimasu. Heh, she seems like she's acting cute when she says that! I think she's saying it wrongly or something, but I wouldn't know...)

2010-11-05T12:28:00.003+08:00

Currently, the thing I'm most excited to do after exams is................................

GO TO THE LIBRARY :D :D :D

I have a million books I want to read. Been restraining myself from reading books this year because once I start reading one, I can't stop till I finish the whole book. I used to read 4 books a day in primary school PLUS do all my hw, sigh life was good. Once I just sat on my bed the moment I got home from the library in the afternoon and read book after book till past midnight! I miss the public libraries in US where u can borrow 99books. Here you can only borrow 4/8/16 (forgot) books at once :(

You should visit this website : www.thecompulsivereader.com

The person recommends lots of nice YA fiction. Most of the time, I like em.

2010-11-04T09:41:00.002+08:00

I slacked yesterday away! Feeling a bit guilty now but I needed that break. I listened to Mariah's new christmas album, and it's not bad at all! I don't really like the lead single, Oh Santa, but some of the other tracks are really good :)

2010-11-03T16:27:00.004+08:00

So... Only 1 more writing pp left, then the rest's mcqs! YAYA

My bio was stupid. The paper wasn't actually that difficult but ERGHHHH! I don't think I'll do well for P2, hope I'll do well for P1.

I've been thinking.. It's quite sad that my family doesn't go to the same church--- my parents go to one, my sis to another one and I go to yet another one. Sometimes, it feels weird that I go to an adult service by myself and I'm probably the only person in the room under 20.

My classmate's cat just died. Reminds me of the Poor Babe(aka Butty), still miss her after so long. Sometimes I still cry myself to sleep, hating her because she left so soon.

And I'm well aware that my eng is horrible here---- ideas all disconnected, weird punctuation, fake words. Actually my eng was always this bad, dunno why ppl think my eng is gd. (Don't talk to me about Eng Os). Ok, I don't know what I'm doing here, feeling all demoralized and bashing myself up. I hope nobody actually reads this.

I want a peace that transcends all understanding.

2010-11-02T10:09:00.002+08:00

Os are almost over! I don't feel very optimistic about some papers though.

I've been DREAMING of the beautiful planner I'm gonna get after Os! Imma stationery freak :D Too bad it's really expensive.

Bye! Tmr's bio. Feeling unprepared, but I'll never feel prepared enough.

2010-10-27T19:32:00.001+08:00

a quick rant.

I can't believe that Taylor Swift overtook Mariah Carey for number of top 10 debuts!

MC is soooooo much better D: TS's songs all sound similar!

Shall elabo after Os.

Yay, em was easy :) AM tmr, D:

2010-10-06T18:37:00.002+08:00

I can't wait till after the Os.

O levels are making me fatter and fatter, cuz I keep eating while studying D:

I'm so scared (of Os, not of fats, but I guess I'm scared of that too)

lalalala

2010-09-16T12:51:00.000+08:00

You still haunt me...

2010-09-15T14:16:00.001+08:00

moohooohahaha. I'm a hacker!! HEE HEE! So satisfied, I found out how to hack the ipod so that I can transfer music from ipod to itunes in diff coms :)USEFUL MUCH!

2010-09-14T17:49:00.004+08:00

I have been making a list of stuff to do after the O! Can't wait :)
-LIBRARY! There're so many books I want to read. go to thecompulsivereader.com
Many of the books I like to read are recommended from that website.

After the O, I'm also going to buy a BEEOOOYUTIIFULLL planner from Jurong Point. It's BEEEEEOUUUUTTTIIIFFULLL :D There're Alice In Wonderland, Wizard of Oz, and the LIttle Prince themes. Can;t decide what to get. My sis got the Alice one. But they're expensive :( Small one costs $25, big prettier one costs $50something. OH WELL! I'll save money on food starting soon.

My hair is pretty long now. In the (not near) future I'm going to cut it short, exactly like my sister! hehehe. I bet people will say that we look like twins when I do that. I'm not cutting it in the near future because long hair is too fun to play with.

Emath prelim paper 1 was quite easy. Yay.
So far:
SS:good
Chem:horrible
Emath:Good
Bio:not so great

I'm dead for physics...

OLD SCHOOL MARIAH! I love her hair wild and super curly :)She looks so pretty.
Her vocals are amazing here!

I totally regret buying that Alicia Keys cd for $30 :((((
I could have gotten both Mariah Carey's Daydream AND Butterfly together for $20!
And the thing is now I don't even listen to Alicia keys anymore.
Anyone wants to buy the Alicia Keys CD from me for $20? Discount!!!
BYE! SEEYA! I realize I don't really blog often anymore.

2010-08-12T18:41:00.002+08:00

wahhhh. It's Aug 12 NOW! So near the exams :(

I just watched the video Jan recorded of me saying my TOTALLY MESSED UP speech on National Day Celebrations. I get goosebumps when I hear myself stutter and um and ah. But it's so sweet when I hear all the "GO WYs" in the background :)))))

2010-07-19T17:05:00.002+08:00

Many mental illness cases start from the teenage years. Parents often attribute symptoms such as moodiness to raging hormones.

I'm moody. I'm depressed. I'm going crazy....

2010-07-13T19:26:00.002+08:00

I quit Facebook! I deleted my account :) hoho, hee hee I'm proud of meeself.

School's ok... I'm glad that we get aircon now.

2010-06-05T10:27:00.002+08:00

I went to the doctor's for a blood test.

2 weird things happened to me.

1) A WORM FELL ON ME! YUCK YUCK YUCK!!!!!! I thought there was something dirty on my glasses so I took them off to wipe and there was a disgusting green wriggling WORM! Sick!

2) When the doctor poked the needle into my veins, I was staring at it. Then she pulled the syringe thingy and my blood bubbled up it and for some reason, I felt an uncontrollable urge to start laughing, so I started giggling. The nurse thought I was hysterical and quickly told me to look away. SO WEIRD!

Haha... that has never happened to me before. I wonder why I needed to laugh.

2010-06-03T19:49:00.002+08:00

Day two of being vegan. Minus the "not using any animal products/clothes/etc" part.

It's not as bad as I thought it'll be.

And no. Despite what some of you might like to think, I'm not doing this to "look skinny".

2010-06-03T15:41:00.000+08:00

Is trying enough?

Don't give up before you try.

2010-05-26T14:22:00.002+08:00

I feel happy :) I bought a cd for the first time ever! It's Alicia Key's The Element of Freedom. Actually I only like a few songs on it, but hopefully, the others will grow on me. Currently, I have 2 cds in my possesion.

1) Mariah Carey's Greatest Hits.

2) Alicia Key's The Element of Freedom.

Today I got back my report book. I really need to improve my physics and chem! Otherwise, it's ok except that I need to get A1 for 3 subjects which I normally get A1 for, but somehow I didn't this time. I think it's because I had so little time to study this time round. I need to improve my english too.

I'm happy for my ss and lit!! whooo.

OH and today I just found out that Felicia (classmate) wants to be a vet too! YAY :) Who knows... maybe we'll go to the same uni and she can be my dorm mate so I won't have to share rooms with a creepy person! Thinking too far ahead.

LOVE those eyes

2010-05-16T16:12:00.002+08:00

I love how Macdonald plays a lot of Mariah Carey oldies :)
Almost every time I go I'll hear at least 1 MC song!
Let's see, I've heard Heartbreaker, One Sweet Day, Emotions, We Belong Together, and Honey.

Recently, I've been listening to a lot of Alicia Keys songs.
I don't think her voice is as flawless as Mariah Carey's but there is a certain pleasant rawness to it.
Her songs are certainly not as finely written as MC's but there are some I really like.

I think this song is ok, but it's one of her more famous songs. She looks cool with cornrows.

This song took some time to grow on me. I really like 3:26-3:46.

I think this is a great song, I just don't really like the video.

I really like this song!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! She looks really beautiful in the video too :)

I think Alicia Keys is really pretty. She has a beautiful face structure! And I like her hair! I want her cd...

Yay. I'm so happy that I don't have school while other people have :) Hehehe. Feels great. And it feels GREAT that I get to go home at 1.30! mwahaha.

2010-05-05T19:11:00.002+08:00

I'm dead for Amath! Owell, sorta expected it. I must REALLY mug after the exams!
Chem was actually better than expected for me. At least it was better than my past chem exams. I didn't leave 3/4 of the paper blank and crap through the rest like before! I hope that I'll get a B3.

Today I made a fool out of myself twice. The first time, I don't really want to mention. The second time, I was on the bus and it jerked and I laughed really loud. At myself. So embarrassing! I could feel the people looking at me weirdly. I didn't laugh on purpose! It just came out.

2010-05-02T15:18:00.002+08:00

I just did pilate with my sister! So fun!!!

I like to sing with my sister, especially in harmonizing parts :) Our voices really blend because they're so similar.

2010-04-26T20:59:00.002+08:00

I feel so sad just thinking that everyday I sit in class in SMSS doing crazy things with Janice, laughing my heads off during Amath at the people behind, counting dots on the diligent and studious people in front, being amused by classmates asking funny questions, moaning over messed up tests, cutting my hair in class, colouring staple bullets, talking in donah, sharing disgusting memories of the stuff we did in K1, looking at classmates tying their hair for the 20something time, feeling privileged during chinese cus I have free period, doing well for tests, doing badly for tests, etc etc, will all soon be just memories :(

Treasure your time sitting with your buddy because everyday is one less day till we all have to separate.

2010-04-16T22:39:00.002+08:00

YOOOOOOO! I'm crazy high right now. The first day of the GRACE concert was really fun and enjoyable. I think the audience enjoyed it too! I really love having concerts, the feeling is indescribable :)
The hard (and torturing) work before the concert pays off.
I CAN'T WAIT till tomorrow! I'm glad that there'll be two more shows.

One thing I'll miss about choir is the feeling of singing with a mass group of like individuals without being completely out of tune and letting our voices and hearts and spirits just soar.

(screaming the happy birthday song is not counted because I think it's the number one most out of tune song sung often.)

2010-04-15T19:13:00.001+08:00

Hey, tomorrow's the GRACE concert :) I'm actually looking forward to it! I hope I'll truly enjoy it.

2010-04-13T17:44:00.001+08:00

My muscles ache all over!
Yesterday we did the 5 stations.
I'm so weak! And unfit!
This is bad.

My standing broad jump, shuttle run, and pullups are horrible.
Very bad.

2010-04-09T23:06:00.002+08:00

whoo! 1 more week to go :)

It's amazing what being depressed makes you do.
In 2 days, I finished 3/4 tub of VERY BERRY icecream from Island Creamery by MYSELF. Hehe, I'm such a glutton but it's kind of fun to eat directly from the tub until your mouth feels like it got frostbitten. And it works in making me feel less sad.
You should try.

2010-04-08T17:16:00.001+08:00

I feel so depressed. I just messed up my Physics SPA today. And I was depending on Physics NOT chemistry to get that extra A1 that I need D:
I hate my brain. STUPIUD!

2010-04-07T21:19:00.002+08:00

During Math:
Janice: I'm so hot but my nose is running :( *sniff sniff*
WY: Your nose is running away because you're so hot!
-awkward silence-
WY: I'm so lame today that my nose isn't running.

BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

2010-04-06T22:18:00.000+08:00

Everyone needs compassion,
Love thats never failing
Let mercy fall on me

Well everyone needs forgiveness,
Kindness of a savior
The Hope of the nation

(Chorus)
Saviour, He can move the mountains,
My God is mighty to save,
He is mighty to save
Forever, author of salvation,
He rose and conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave

So take me as you find me
All my fears and failures
Fill my life again

I give my life to follow
Everything that i believe in
Now i surrender (and i surrender)

(Chorusx2)

Shine your light and let the whole world see
We're singing, for the glory of the risen king, Jesus
Shine your light and let the whole world see
We're singing for the glory of the risen king, Jesus

(Chorusx2)

Shine your light and let the whole world see
We're singing, for the glory of the risen king, Jesus
Shine your light and let the whole world see
We're singing for the glory of the risen king, Jesus

2010-04-01T19:53:00.006+08:00

I can't believe how hectic this week was but next week and the week after will be much, much worse.

THANK GOD FOR EVERY DAY AND ESPECIALLY GOOD FRIDAY :D

I think I'd die if there were school tomorrow!

I'm so proud of myself because I didn't use the computer for three days :)

Today was full dress rehearsal for the grace concert. I like watching those dances and gym practice! It looks really cool! So jealous >:)

A few more days to get out of this hellhole.

2010-03-27T19:06:00.000+08:00

I'm thankful for good and crazy friends :)

2010-03-23T15:41:00.001+08:00

today felt horrible. I don't know why.

But I had fun doing DONAH!!! ;D

2010-03-22T15:44:00.002+08:00

THANKS FOR ALL THE PRESENTS AND SWEET NOTES AND LETTERS EVERYBODY :D I'm so touched :')

Truth of the day: Nothing is ever as bad as it seems!

Come on! The 'O' levels are just 'O' levels! Come to think of it, my father did extremely horribly for both his 'O' and 'A's (and I mean REALLY REALLY BAD! I saw his report card or whatever that thingy is called. It's worse than anything I've ever gotten. Oops, I don't think he would want everyone to know this...) Anyway. He still went on to get a PHD!

So nothing is really that bad.

But it's still scary, I know. I still feel scared.

BUT I can't wait after the 'O's! I can go out and PLAYYYY.

I gotta study harder so I don't have any regrets.

Why is it so hard to get a rein on my time?

Just don't feel too stressed. And "stay happy always!"

2010-03-20T11:06:00.002+08:00

The holidays just flew away. I didn't even get to enjoy it! Come to think of it, I had to go to school every single day until today, which is SATURDAY! I still haven't finished my hw, and I didn't manage to study at all.

So sad. My holidays are goneeee.............

2010-03-16T21:16:00.001+08:00

NO OFFENCE TO ANYBODY but you know those korean groups (like SNSD), they act cute so much that it gives me GOOSEBUMPS!

2010-03-10T19:25:00.002+08:00

Thank you, God, for carrying me through another week.

Sec 4 is tougher than I expected. I thought I'll feel the same way I did in Sec 3, but I feel the stress of the days ticking by, each one closer to the dreaded Os!

Guess what! I actually scored quite well for the English compo which I thought I would fail. I really don't understand why I got 22/30 when 1) my vocab was EXTREMELY limited! 2)My ending was total crap. One sentence the girl was in despair and moaning about stuff, the next she was applauding and high.

It's so weird! The teacher read one compo where the vocab was really good and the story was complex but it didn't score so well. I don't like English :(

Guess what! Another weird thing happened. I won 3rd place for the english library poster thingy which we did for holiday homework.

Girl: Congrats you ....... library.......!! (my ears only caught these words)

Me: HAH?? But I didn't borrow a single book this year!

Sigh sigh, I don't want to go get the prize. So troublesome. I hope it's a good prize e.g. Kinokuniya voucher!

After school, today, I wasted 1hour of my stoning and moaning about _____.

Choir was scary today, I had "stage"fright. And I kept croaking today.

2010-03-07T13:44:00.002+08:00

This was the song I played on repeat when Butty died. It's a really sad song and it was #1 for 16 weeks on the Billboard.

Sorry I never told you
All I wanted to say
And now it's too late to hold you
'Cause you've flown away, so far away

Never had I imagined
living without your smile
Feeling and knowing you hear me
It keeps me alive, alive

And I know you're shining down on me from heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together (Together)
One sweet day (And all that I know and I'll wait patiently to see you in Heaven)

Darlin', I never showed you (No, no, no, no, no, no) {I never showed you}
Assumed you'd always be there (mariah: always be there,) no,no, {I thought you'd always be there}
and I took your presence for granted
But I always cared (But I always cared) and I miss the love we shared

And I know you're shining down on me from heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way (Lost along the way)
And I know eventually we'll be together (I know, I know)
One sweet day (And all thatI know is I'll wait patiently to see you in Heaven)

Although the sun will never shine the same
I'll always look to a brighter day
Yeah, yeah
Lord, I know when I lay me down to sleep
You will always listen as I pray

And I know you're shining down on me from heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way (Like so many)
And I know eventually we'll be together (Yes, I know, I know we'll be together)
One sweet day

And I know you're shining down on me from heaven (I'll see you eventually)
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together(I know, I know)
One sweet day (One sweet day, whoa...)

patiently to see you in Heaven

Sorry I never told you
All I wanted to say

2010-03-05T17:05:00.002+08:00

Today was full of extreme highs and lows.

First thing in the morning, I got scolded. WHAT THE HECK! I don't think that I deserved to be scolded. I KNOW the world doesn't revolve around the one and only FWY. I KNOW you're busy.

I thank my God for parents who are willing to spend much of the whole day helping me and scolding the school clerk who was extremely rude and tried to hang up on my mom because she "called too many times".

I cry really easily, too easily. I hate it! It's so embarrassing, especially when people don't know your reason and in their minds, they're all thinking "what a crybaby". I guess I'm too sensitive to things that I don't need to be. Like what JS said, I'm wasting my tears over things like that.

On a brighter note, my sister did SUPER for her 'A' levels!!!!!! I'm happy for my sister, but I keep wondering why she's so smart and I'm not. I think it's to do with how hard she works and how much I slack.

2010-03-04T21:46:00.003+08:00

O. My. GOSH!!!

I'm grinning from ear to ear.

This is too good to be true!

My parents have decided to let me be exempted from CLB!

I sound like the hugest loser possible, but I really can't cope with chinese. Not even with CLB.

Maybe it's because I keep on saying I can't, but I really can't!

WHOOHOOO.

I don't really want to give up because I feel so loserish but then I've learnt chinese for 5 years already, and I just don't see any improvement. Perhaps it's because I don't try, but I REALLY HATE IT!

But if it means that I have more time to catch up on other subjects which I suck at, then I don't mind. And it's one less subject to get stressed over.

Besides, even if I have trouble with university application, which I don't think I will because my parents checked with some people who were exempted also, God will make a way!

I don't think God will let me become somebody just drifting around on earth because I can't get into university. Because I dropped chinese.

2010-03-04T18:57:00.002+08:00

Today has to be the worst day of this year :(

btw, I love choir.

2010-03-03T18:50:00.002+08:00

It's march already.

Things to look forward to:

1) My birthday :DDD It's 17 March, if you didn't know.

2)End of O levels

Things not to look forward to:

1)O levels

2)SPAs

3)Getting back O level results

4)Splitting up with classmates :( I sound like my class is my spouse.. even though I'm not close to a lot of people, I'll still miss them. Even people I tend to feel annoyed with currently, I bet that I'll look back on them with bittersweet fondness.

Today was so hectic. I found out that I had actually been exempted from chinese since sec 1. They forced me and my parents to make a snap decision whether I wanted to not take CLB anymore or just take it. My parents told them to let me take it because they said that if I don't have a second language, applying to universities will be troublesome.

SIGH I HATE CHINESE. I'm so bad at it. My chinese is bad even for CLB standards. CLB is supposed to be crazy easy. It's MCQ.

HI THERE...

2010-03-02T15:23:00.002+08:00

Whew. The first Physics SPA is over :D I feel so relieved. Thank you. God, it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be.

This morning, before I went to school, I read Psalm 3.

"Verse 8: From the Lord comes deliverance. May your blessing be on your people."

I felt so comforted because at first, I kept on worrying that I would blank out and forget how to do the experiment. God really watches over his people :)

Guess what! I found out that when I do my quiet time in the morning before school, I have a remarkably better day then when I don't. Tested and proven!

Another piece of happy news! I got 22/25 for my literature test which I thought I would flunk! Literature is so weird. I see absolutely no difference in my writing style, but sometimes, I get as low as 13 and other times, as high as 22. HALLELUJAH :D

But. I should really find out how to do consistently well.

Something that really annoys me about myself is that I'm really rude sometimes without meaning to be. For example, today, Xiaoyin was asking me something and at first I couldn't hear so I said in this annoying extremely high pitch voice "hah?!".

Nowadays, the Dudemen sisters always go to a SECRET place to relax before common tests/cca/etc. It is really relaxing and peaceful! It helps clear my mind before stressful situations e.g. tests/choir.

Janice and I like to embarrass Jie Shi by waving at people. Haha, super childish but it's fun xD. Janice waved at a police car the other day. JS was so shocked! I was shocked too [I wasn't there]. Once, I waved at a motorcycle driving past and the person didn't see but then it turns out that a boy in a van driving next to the motorcycle saw and waved back. So weird.

Today, Jan was at her bowling competition. Hope she did well! YO DID YOU HEAR THAT DUDEJAN?? Anyway, I hate it when I am alone in class! I was practically falling asleep. Not that I did. But I felt like it! And the stupid cable for the projector wouldn't work so I felt helpless without the pro janice helping me. Hehe, and i accidentally twisted the wires more than they were twisted at first.

WORST PART OF TODAY: I had something black stuck in the middle of my teeth the whole day :'( gosh...so embarrassing!

2010-03-01T18:58:00.002+08:00

I'M FINALLY BACK FROM THE DENTIST -.-

My appointment was at 5.30.

School ended at 1.30.

I did my work in school until 3.

I waited for stupid 174 which I missed TWICE (once on my way there, the other on the way back) for 30 minutes.

I waited for my appointment for 1.5 hours.

Sigh....

Physics SPA is tomorrow! ALL THE PEST PEOPLE!

2010-02-26T21:13:00.002+08:00

I hate how I get super stressed and motivated at school but the moment I reach home, all of the stress and motivation disappears.

2010-02-23T18:46:00.002+08:00

Baby Elliot is cute! I feel "motherly" when I hold him :) I just remembered that Kirin said I would make a "great housewife" but seriously, I don't think I would because I actually hate children! Oops.

Actually I don't. I just strongly dislike talking to kids (unless they are babies!) because they do cute stuff and I don't know how to respond.

And I have a grudge against a certain little sister of somebody who said my name reminded her of a tree! hmph.

2010-02-23T17:42:00.003+08:00

Oh no. I just realised that since my clb isn't counted, I have to do really well!

Hopefully I can get

Eng-A1

Humans-A1/2

Bio-A1

Emath-A1

Amath-A1

that leaves ONE MORE which means I need to get good grades for either chem or physics which I am currently sucking at!

Physics-B3

That would mean I get (assuming humans-A2) 9points. CANNOT!

Physics-A2

Ok, maybe 8 points would be ok but I would still feel really sad :(

Worst case (which is about what I am getting now.)

Eng-B4

Humans-B4

Bio-A1

Emath-A1

Amath-A1

Physics-B4

OH NO that's 15 points.

I'm so scared...

I MUST get A1 for English!!!

And I feel even worst after being told that only 7 people got A1 for physics last year and less for chemistry.

I hate Sec 4. I bet all those people who are over and done with their 'O' are sniggering at this. Oh well, people always say that 'O' aren't that hard and 'A' are 5X harder. DIE

2010-02-21T13:51:00.001+08:00

Hey people! My tagbox is back! Click on the first heart and tag :)

2010-02-20T14:37:00.002+08:00

I am so glad there's no school on monday.

2010-02-19T16:51:00.003+08:00

It's so difficult to follow my dreams :( I can't blame my stupidity on genes either because my parents AND sister are all smart.

I feel sad because although the class ate my cheesecake, choir people didn't really :( I think it's because there were too few people, and A LOT of food.

2010-02-18T18:13:00.002+08:00

I'm excited for tomorrow! It's sec one induction (not the part I'm excited about) but I'm excited about making cheesecake for it! I am making 80 mini cheesecake with SUPREME strawberry topping :D Because I am making 40 extras for my class! I like my class :) Thank God for nice classmates. Even though we're all cliquish, I think that we get along well with pretty much everyone.

I Miss You, Buttercup.

2010-01-18T18:17:00.016+08:00

12 November 2005

The first time I laid my eyes on Buttercup. I held her so tightly, the saleslady had to keep telling me that I could hold her gently.

On the first day, I was so worried about her because she seemed not to be drinking water so I put water on my hands and knees and she started licking them. Henceforth, she always licked me whenever her mouth came into contact with skin unless it smelled weird. Pinky picked up this queer little habit of Buttercup's. Only the two of them always lick people, Yodie does not. However, Butty rarely licked my face, she only did so on special occasions. For some reason, her little tongue feels really hot when she licks my face.

A tiny bundle of joy; Buttercup on her first day at home

A very young and alert Butty that could fit into my palm.

Butty at 3months of age, sitting on my messy desk. Her fur is still very light here, but you can see some darkening around her nose.

She grew quickly and her caramel-colored fur became darker, with more grey and less white. Her face became less chubby and longer. Nonetheless, I thought that she was still the cutest little bunny. After this change in appearance, she looked pretty much the same for the rest of her life, but gained more weight.

Buttercup, 1year old.

Many a times, I would just lie down on the floor and Buttercup would come over and sniff me or hop onto my back. If I was feeling particularly sad, she would lick me comfortingly.

Butty was a really smart Bunny! We didn't have to train her to be litter trained but she was like that naturally :)

Buttercup's neat pile of poo :)

There was a period when Buttercup went through a "rebellious" stage. She would not let us pick her up and ran away when we wanted to put her back in the cage. But we prayed for her and she became sweet again within a few weeks.

Butty being naughty. She actually picked that piece of paper out of the trashcan and started to eat it!

One afternoon, I was exhausted and decided to take a nap. I didn't manage to sleep much because Butty apparently thought something was wrong with me because she jumped on my bed smack onto my head! When I just moaned and groaned, she scratched me (not like a cat, but like a rabbit digging a burrow) :)

Buttercup on my bed.

For the first few years, Butty loved sitting on the big red chair. She would jump onto the chair by herself and sit up there like a little king. But in her later years, she stopped jumping onto the chair, and instead, took a liking to the weighing scale.

Buttercup decided one day to sit on her chair, after many years of not doing so! I was so surprised, but that was the last time I ever saw her do that.

Buttercup sleeping on the weighing scale.

Buttercup was the most jealous rabbit. She hated all other rabbits, including Pinky and Yodie, who always friendly, would sniff up to Butty, only to get their noses bitten. When Yodie first came to our household, whenever Buttercup saw me or my father holding him, she would scream a most heartrending scream. Fortunately, this stopped after Butty realized that Yodie was here to stay, but she never did grow to like him.

Buttercup, Yodie, Pinky

Butty had become much less active when she became middle aged, so I hardly noticed her aging. On 16th January 2010, she had severe diarrhea in the morning and could hardly move. She refused to eat or drink. By the time we were ready to go to the vet, her whole bottom was soiled. We flipped her over to clean her up and she tried to struggle, but she had no strength at all. It broke my heart to see her like that. When I put her in the carrier, only half of her body was in so I gave her a gentle push so she could hop in like normal, but she was too weak to even do that.

This was Buttercup a few weeks before she died. She still looked so lively, that I had no clue at all that she was sick.

After getting some injections and medicine, we went home, where I tried to force feed her with critical condition food from the veterinarian, as directed by the vet. However I only managed to get less than a tablespoon of food and water down the whole afternoon and evening. The vet had warned us that if she flipped on her side or if her stomach becomes hard and bloated, we must rush her to the animal hospital.

She was so weak.

At around 10pm, as I held her, I realized that without my notice, Buttercup really had lost a lot of weight. I could feel her bones jutting out and I think that without her fur, she would be like a skeleton. It saddened me how fast she deteriorated for just mere days ago, she could still run around.

The day before she died, Buttercup couldn't even lift her head.

That night, before I slept, I felt her stomach and it was still very "fluidy". At around 5am, my father went to check on Buttercup, and she was still lying in her litter tray, in the exact same position as we left her. When my father woke up at 7, he went out to check on her again, and she was dead.

I guess that around 6, in her final moments, she had a burst of strength and got out of the litter tray, pushed it to the other end of the cage and lay down on the floor.

My mom broke the news to me in the morning and I ran out, already crying. When I saw her body, I just kept wailing and wailing. I couldn't believe that stiff shell was Buttercup. I can't fully accept that she's gone forever.

At school, the tears don't come, and I can even laugh and joke as per normal. I almost convinced myself that I had gotten over it.But when I'm at home, alone, I feel so very alone and I miss Buttercup so much. I feel the saddest when I remember her last day, lying there so weak and when I found out she was dead. The pain and hurt when I felt her stiff, cold, lifeless body. How could that be her?

What keeps me going is that I believe in God and that there is Heaven. If I did not believe this, I would feel extremely depressed, almost to the point of not wanting to live anymore. Why would I want to live if at the end of it all, I would just die? It that were true, that would mean that Buttercup has already disappeared and she really is gone forever. Then there’s no point in striving anymore because I would never see her again anyway. BUT I don’t think that’s true. Although it is not certain what happen to animals, I know that humans can go to heaven and I know that God loves me and wants the best for me. God knows how much I and others love their pets. I think that animals have souls too, as they feel, and know when they do something wrong. I think that right now, Buttercup is in God's arms and she is out of her misery.

This is my dream: Buttercup is in a great, big meadow, with bright green grass and pretty flowers. It is not too hot but the weather is pleasant and windy. The sky is clear blue with puffy, cotton-candy clouds. It is Heaven. Butty is running around, nibbling on the daisies, and binkying like she has not done so for years. She does not feel lonely nor sad nor sick nor grumpy nor in pain, but is filled with joy. The day I go to Heaven, we'll see each other and run into each others' arms. That is, she'll run into my arms because I can't fit into hers. Then, we'll have all of eternity.

The last time that I brought Butty outside to play.

Here are some verses that I found comfort in when I felt so lost and hopeless. May you find rest in them as well.

"Brothers and sisters, we do not want you to be ignorant about those who fall asleep, or to grieve like the rest of men, who have no hope. We believe that Jesus died and rose again and so we believe that God will bring with Jesus those who have fallen asleep in him." Thessalonian 4:13-14

"The Lord is close to the broken hearted and saves those who are crushed in the Spirit" Psalm 34:18

"The Lord gave and the Lord has taken away. May the name of the Lord be praised." Job 1:21

Buttercup, thank you for the 4years and 4 months of joy you gave me. Although your death was so painful, I would rather go through that all over again than not to have ever experienced the joy of taking care of you. I love you, Butty. I miss you.

2010-01-16T10:35:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was CCA Fair. We all screamed like mad pigs. Every one was screaming and squeezing past other screaming people. It was just so crazy! At one point, me, alethea teng, sandra and nanthini went to the back of the school and it suddenly became so quiet because nobody was there :) Hehe, Alethea and I were running around the back being crazy and enjoying the silence.

After I went home, I fell asleep at 8.30 and woke up at 8.30 today. I slept 12 hours for the first time in a LONG time :) But my eye bags are still there! Sho shad.

2010-01-03T17:19:00.006+08:00

I was in the middle of a rabbit fight today! It was so scary! I can't imagine what being in the mist of a dog fight would be like.

I went out to the balcony to get something because my mom needed it. Pinky was in the balcony and Butty was in the living room. I got sort of stuck outside because my hands were full and Pinky was standing at the door waiting to rush into the living room while Butty was standing inside waiting for Pinky to rush in. My mom thought that Pinky went away and she opened the door so I could get in but Pinky rushed in! Butty and Pinky were snapping and rolling over each other and biting and it was SO DARN SCARY!! I thought one of them would die. Surprisingly, the normally friendly Pinky was also snapping and growling aggressively at Butty. Meanwhile, I was screaming NOONOOOOO and crying while my mom was looking uselessly. Somehow, I managed to grab Butty and dump her in the cage.

So scary, it's the first time that they've gotten into a real fight.

Yesterday, I spent some time compiling some of my favorite sections in various Mariah Carey songs! I added in some live versions too :) I like the live version of Can't let Go [1.24-1.51] but the studio version [0.57-1.24] is amazing too. Hero live@Tokyo Dome [4.27-5.03]leaves me absolutely speechless! I really like the "growl" she puts in her voice when she belts Make It Happen [2.56-3.15]. If you don't want to listen to the whole thing, at least listen to these 3 parts because they are so good!!

And to add to your listening pleasure, remember to look at the lyrics below while you listen :)

1)Alone In Love
Sitting in the dark without you
How am I supposed to make it through the night?
Slowly fall apart without you
Cry away the hours till the morning light

2)Love Takes Time
You might say that it's over!
You might say that you don't care!
You might say you don't miss me, you don't need me!
But I know that you do and I feel that you do, inside!

3)Can't Let Go
Do you even realize the sorrow I have inside,
Every day of my life?
Do you know the way it feels when all you have just dies?
I try and try, to deny that I need you but still you remain on my mind!

4)Can't Let Go Live@Sondagstoppe

5)So Blessed
Stay with me beyond the end!
I treasure you, because you made me whole again.

6)You're So Cold
Made of stone!
Oh you're wicked to the bone.
I give you my heart,
You tear me apart.
You're like a devil in disguise!

7)Till the End of Time
Tell me what you need,
Let me give you all of me.
Cause without you, nothing's real.
You're the reason that I feel!
Tell me what you need!
Let me give you everything,
Every moment I'm alive,
Until the end of time!

8)Make It Happen
I once was lost
But now am found!
I've got my feet
on solid ground!
Thank you, Lord!
If you believe
What's in your soul
Just hold on tight
And don't let go!
You can make it,
Make it happen!

9)Hero
Lord knows,
Dreams are hard to follow.
But don't let anyone,
Tear them away.
Just hold on,
there will be tomorrow.
In time, you'll find a way!

9)Hero Live@Madison Square Garden

10)Hero Live@Tokyo Dome

11)Just to Hold You Once Again
You were the only one, only one
That I allowed inside my heart.
Now I'm just holding on,
Something's so far gone!
Oh where did I go wrong?

12)All I Ever Wanted
Everything I do is for you.
And you are every part of me.
And I don't want to face another day
Alone,
Without your love!

13)I've Been Thinking About You
Don't you know,
That you're blowing my mind?
What you do to me,
I can't describe.
Baby, I can't hold back anymore!
I just can't conceal it!
You're the one I really adore!

14)Melt Away
You and me,
In a cloud of reverie,
Spin around inside my head
Unendingly.
Over and over and over and over.
Thoughts run wild,
as I sit and rhapsodize.
Pretty pictures of what I'll do, if you were mine.

15)Whenever You Call
And I will breath for you each day,
Comfort you through all the pain,
Gently kiss your fears away,
You can turn to me and cry,
Always understand that I
Give you all I have inside!

2010-01-01T23:04:00.002+08:00

And so the holiday comes to an end.

Wasn't as productive as I hoped for! I didn't catch up on chem or physics, though I must admit that I did do a lot of questions. Heh, I guess I was one of the few people who tried to study during the hol. Not that I succeeded!!

I feel so happy about something, but it's not going to last :(

2009-12-29T23:12:00.002+08:00

hey! Choir is cancelled on the 31st! YAAAAYYYYYY :D

We didn't do anything in choir today. Just play games.

After I came home, I sent letters to all the universities in UK and AU that offered veterinary medicine regarding the ngee ann's veterinary bioscience programme. But I found out that many of the unis are closed until Jan 4th or 5th. I hope they'll see my letter :(

I don't want school to start!

2009-12-24T17:54:00.002+08:00

Do you even realize the sorrow that I have inside?
Everyday of my life.
Do you know the way it feels when all you have just dies?
I try and try to deny that I need you but still you remain on my mind!

2009-12-24T17:33:00.002+08:00

I want a Cockapoo!!!!!!!!

I want a Ragdoll!!!

2009-12-22T20:04:00.002+08:00

I'm finally back in Singapore :( Feeling slightly sad because I like HK now and also, coming back means school's starting soon. Alot of things happened in HK!

We had to take the next flight to HK because somehow the tickets got overbooked. I didn't mind too much because they gave us $225 (US) in gift vouchers and some more in cash! I got a speaker and my mom a new camera.

If you go to HK you must try the french toast available during noon! It's so yummy. My sis and I were in search of the perfect "Sai Doh See" so we ate french toast almost every day. But we didn't find the perfect one, they were either too oily, sweet or no peanut butter. The egg boiled in tea leaves is also delicious. Or maybe I was just starving when I tried it but it tasted SO GOOD.

I remember on one evening, around 9pm, my whole family were walking back to my grandparents' house after a long day. It was already dark. Then we saw some teenagers smoking and kicking somebody lying on the ground in a playground. My mom saw it the clearest and she said that the whole group was jumping on the person's chest and strangling him. The person was yelling "enough enough" in cantonese but they weren't stopping. So my mom shouted really loudly that she would call the police. We all quickly walked inside the building and my mom told the security guard and they went to deal with it. It was really scary! I am so proud of my mom :)

I went to Ocean Park with Charis and Cheryl Yip.It was fun, especially the magic hall of mirrors, the mine train, and this thingy which i don't know how to describe. Charis dropped her cell phone on the bus.

I lost my cell phone too! I am sure I brought it to HK but I didn't use it at all and now I can't find it. D:

2009-12-05T22:19:00.003+08:00

This is the only song i like from MC after 1997 :)So far. Can you tell the difference between her voice in here and the other videos I post up of her? I can... D: Her old voice was much better. Not that she isn't good anymore. I think she's still GREAT but nothing compared to her 1990/1/2/3/4/5/6 voice.

Anyway, I'm off to Hong Kong for 2 weeks! I'm gonna become a Vegetarian for 2 weeks too :) If it's possible, which I think it's not because there's too many GOOD YUMMY DELICIOUS food to be eaten.

Ciao.

2009-12-03T23:54:00.000+08:00

I don't care about the previous post anymore.. Hehe, actually I do. but.. that's not something to get so depressed abt, i guess.

2009-12-03T23:36:00.002+08:00

my self esteem is down in the dumps right now :(

I feel fat and pimply and flabby and short and stupid :(

I weigh more than my dad.

2009-12-03T13:05:00.002+08:00

There's some debate regarding whether this is Mariah Carey singing it. This was from her demo tape way back in 1986 before she was famous! She was only 16 when she sang this :0

I think the whole song was sung her. The speaking is definitely her.

Alethea Chong and Teng came to my house on Dec 1 :) We made DELICIOUS cheesecakes, that were very successful and chocolate molten cake that weren't. Then we played badminton for almost 2 hours. Afterwards, we surfed youtube and listened to music and I showed Alethea Teng Mariah Carey's famous whistle :D Haha, then she tried to whistle (and failed) >< haha

2009-11-29T16:11:00.005+08:00

Hey! I have been going to Trinity Christian Centre for a few months now and I really enjoy the services there :) I enjoy the vibrant worship and the sermons as well! I want to become closer to God- who is great and awesome.

I was surfing Youtube and I found this:

I think she's really good! She's covering Whitney's Houston's "The Greatest Love of All" here. Hehe, but I just don't agree that it's the greatest love of all, but the song is nice.

2009-11-11T23:16:00.002+08:00

Hey! I haven't been going online so much these few days. That's because we have a lot of tests :( I have 3 test tomorrow, emath, amath and ss. I hope it's easy! Bye

2009-11-02T20:51:00.000+08:00

Diploma in Veterinary Bioscience (N90) - New!

ooo.

2009-10-27T15:55:00.002+08:00

You and me in a cloud of reverie

Spin around inside my head unendingly

Thoughts run wild as I sit and rhapsodize

Pretty pictures of what I'd do if you were mine

2009-10-26T13:55:00.002+08:00

hey! I guess I am ok with my results. I improved for everything but still quite bad for some subjects X(

I am really happy for bio!!!! Yay, I studied really hard for it! I spent too much time for it so I would have been really mad/sad if I didn't do well. I got 87.5%

I still got C5 for chem :( But improved a bit. Now it's just 0.9 marks to a B.

I improved a lot for physics! :D :D :D I got c6 for mye now I got b4 :D Actually it's still quite bad but watever :D

Er I didnt do well for literature :( I got 17/25 for one and 14/25 for the other. Sad... it's a b4, but at least i didnt fail unseen.

YAYAY EXAMS ARE REALLY OVER BECAUSE NOW I KNOW MY RESULTS><

SAD headstart starts tomorrow :(

I pray that I won't have to go for study camps! But if I have to, I won't mind too much for chem and physics.

2009-10-22T13:51:00.003+08:00

Unisoy Soyamilk powder tastes really good! My mom got it one day and at first, I didn't think it tasted that nice. I don't especially like soyamilk. But after a while, it GREW on me! Now it tastes sweet and creamy :) You should try. You can get it at fairprice. Get the green one not the orange one.

Blueberry Morning is yummy too! They have other flavours like banana but blueberry is the nicest.

Special K Fruit and Yogurt is nice too. My sis likes it a lot. I think it's ok.

Hehe, I am so nice! Make sure you introduce yummy food to me too!

2009-10-22T11:23:00.000+08:00

I didn't go to school today.
CHICKEN!

2009-10-21T19:36:00.003+08:00

My arm is shaking involuntarily from BADMINTON.
Haha, I am really out of shape!
I guess I'll just go to school tomorrow for the post exam activity because Clara went today by herself too so I guess I'll just do it as well.
But she said that it was really boring!

My mouth kept on shaking during the recess concert. Stupid mouth >:(

We'll be getting back our exams soon! YAY :D
I can't wait! Not because I think I'll do well.

Butty was ripping out her chest hair today :(
I wonder what's wrong. She did it a few times before.

2009-10-20T17:31:00.001+08:00

nooooo.
I am all alone on thursday! Nobody is in digital graphic design.
I don't want to go :(
Argh, but I alrdy paid my $12.
Ohwell.

2009-10-19T16:25:00.002+08:00

Exams are over and now I'm SO BORED!!! I feel useless, sitting around at home. There's nothing to do at all. The internet isn't interesting either.
Heh, i know it's crazy but i feel like i had more fun during the exams because i had something to do and wasn't sitting down all the time like a lazy bum.
I don't want to go for post exam activities!!! I signed up for the same stuff as clara but didn't get into any of the same things! I don't want to be a loner... again. I don't know who else is in the same activity. Hopefully a nice classmate/person that I know!

2009-10-15T15:16:00.002+08:00

Back from sleepover at Clara's!
Fun!

After exams ended, Jie Shi, Shasha, Anita, Janice, Clara, Elza, and me went to Pasir Ris to cycle! It was super nice because there was NOBODY there! Janice and Jie Shi didn't know how to cycle but the rest did. I hope they learn soon! It was really beautiful there too.

Then we went iceskating.

blah blah blah,
Fung

Slept over.
Ahaha, i am too lazy to write about the VERY FUN STUFF THAT HAPPENED>
Photos on Fb.

2009-10-13T15:02:00.002+08:00

I'M ALIVE o.O

Listening to remixes of nice songs!
Heh :D Exams aren't over yet but I feel like they are! Just Amath left!
THEN I'M FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
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ok.
Bye

2009-10-03T17:31:00.003+08:00

Yea, though I walk through the valley of the
shadow of death [exams]; I will fear no evil [I WON'T WORRY!]: for thou
art with me [Thank You, Lord] ; thy rod and thy staff they
comfort me [You will bring me through this journey.].

2009-10-01T22:58:00.000+08:00

I want to cry. My mother won't let me join the work attachment :(

2009-10-01T15:05:00.002+08:00

I'm so happy :") I signed up for work attachment at a pet shop! I hope I get in! I really need the work experience if I want to get into vet uni and currently i have ZELO work experience with animals! Unless you count having 3 rabbits currently and a bunch of hamsters and birds before? It's hard work too xD

But my father says it's not very worth it because we must work from 11.30 to 8 or was it 8.30 but we only get paid $30 a day. But I still want to! Better than nothing ^^

2009-09-29T22:20:00.001+08:00

Yoz! I'm so happy that SS and english exams are over! I really messed up SS because I couldn't finish but wartever!

I got even fatter! So sad... my pants feel tighter. :(

I hate studying!

2009-09-28T14:51:00.002+08:00

Haha, this is funny :D

Today was really traumatizing! A huge wasp/hornet flew into the classroom right above me and jan. It crawled into the lights thingy then there was this soft buzzing noise. The class wasn't freaked out because me and jan didn't really make a fuss so not too many people noticed. Then it flew out and the people behind us muttered that they hoped it won't get chopped by the fans then it got chopped by the fans! Haha!!! It dropped onto jan's table so we were really shocked. That was kind of shocking/scary xD The poor thing had half its butt chopped off :( And it was still alive. So after SS, I dropped it out the window. I hope it died quickly, with out too much pain!

2009-09-26T22:20:00.002+08:00

weeeeee i hate exams!
I can't wait till exams are over man!
Bye man!

This is what I'm doing when I should be studying xD

2009-09-25T21:47:00.002+08:00

This performance is really good!

This is the first time I heard mariah carey rapping. Haha :) It's pretty nice! It's from her first album too! Yay I realise that I like almost all the mariah carey songs in the 90s but after that not so much.

Exams

2009-09-08T12:23:00.003+08:00

Hi. Let's see what i've studied!

Bio: 10, 2, 3, 4,

Amath: 2, 3, half of 6

Emath: 1,2,3, half of 5

Physics: a bit of kinematics, a bit of thermal thing

Chem: I really don't know how to study chem :((( I'm going to fail again :(

SS: 5 and 2

Lit: 1-21 (from the last test)

Oh noo.

This is what i have left:

Bio: 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 11

Amath: 1, 4, 5, half of 6, 7.1, 7.2, 7.3, 8

Emath: half of 5, 6, 7, 8, 9,

Physics: kinematics, dynamics, mass, weight , density, moments, pressure, energy work power, kinetic model of matter, transfer of thermal energy, temperature, thermal properties of matter, light, i dunno if sound is tested.

Chem: 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8, did we learn 9 yet, 11,12,15,19

SS: 4 and 6 and revise 2 and 5 properly

Lit: i think i hope that we're just tested till 21.

!@#$%^&*( I am so dead! If you're behind me then you're deader! Oh shoot i don't want to die :(